its been a nice week end. not so much party except friday night but its been mostly about just chilling with my friends. going to a museum, going to a market and then sitting at our 8or atleast MY favorite café, buenas migas in el raval.i think we sat there for about 2 hours or so actually... we even had a really nice conversation with 2 girls who sat was sitting next to us but who then decided just to move to our table becus it didnt make any sense to have a long conversation with that distance between us. one girl was Dutch and one girl was Swedish. they were really cool. so we switched numbers, hopefully we will see them again. they ve been here since february just like me, the Dutch girl did an internship here and the swedish girl studied spanish culture....

anyway, its been a really nice week-end. and tomorrow is halloween. we re off on tuesday which means party all night long tomorrow=)my friends have decided what costumes to wear but i havent decided yet...i have na idea what to wear but it depends if theres any stores open tomorrow(since its kind of a bank holiday here tmrw...)..jjeje, we will see. im sure ill figure something out...

now im drinking my very-new-daily-habit of drinking tea after a meal. ive always been a strict coffee person. but I stopped drinking coffee after dinner about 6 months ago and me and my last roomate Lisa, we bought a lot of different kinds of teas on our first day here and thats when i realised whata soothing effect it has on me and my body so i just went with it and now i cant live without tea...i never thought i would become a tea person...but sometimes people change...but i will always love coffee more! thats for sure! im a big cappuccino gal. my dutch roomate 8or flatmate...)made a dutch dessert today which she gave one of them to me...dont remebember the dutch name of it thou but its like dough with apples inside that you roll (the dough, not the apples=)) and then you u put it in the oven for i dont know how many minutes. its like croissants but healthier (atleast i hope so....). it was yummy!

at the historical museum of catalunya (huuuuuge btw!)

thank god that they had aswell a huge terass=) with an amazing view...wouldnt recommend the museum but the view made it worth it!

its not everyday you have a view like this one of Barcelona...

my cappuccino=)

 the market this morning

   buenas migas        a very beautiful tree   a man contributing to the really nice moment by playing "your song" on the guitar (which happens to be my favorite song)          an adorable little kid. it was so much fun watching it behaving the way he did. becus he screamed when his parents didnt do what he wanted so he just sat down on the big pavement at catalunya...indeed entertaining!   while waiting for Lisa to come...  

this was last wensday morning when i decided to go for a walk in my neighbourhood and i came across this café that my roomate had recommended to me. it was a BEAUTIFUL day so i decided to have breakfast there...sssuuuch a nice moment. snacka om att JAG njöt...

iklädd träningskläder och naturligtvis osminkad;p tackolov så såg jag ingen snygging där s jag behövde inte oroa mig för att se ful ut....thank you!

this is at a quite cool bar called "Rouge", its french for red...

afterwards at a club called apolo...unfortunateky they did not give us any cupcakes...we were so disapointed

I guess its just a name to get ppl to come to the club...btu still. not okay!

i just couldnt resist taking a photo of this pixxa that the restaurant owners had put there in order to get more customers...hilarious!

i had this coffee yday at my favorite café buenas migas....it was pieces of nuts..and some kind of chocolate around it....yummy!im def having it again!

this is at my favorite restorant (italian) called La CremaCanela (at plaza Real). i love that place! touristic BUT they have such good quality on their food so its def worth going there!

i sa this stand hen i was on my daily run..adorable!

/h  

yday i bought a membership card at a gym close to my place. they have a swimmingpool, jacuzzi, massage chair...so really looking forward to go there. think im gonna go there for the first time tomorrow...

its not always easy to have a blog, you never know what is appropriate to write and what is not appropriate, especially when it comes to personal things. how much should you write or how little should you write?

but im gonna write it anyway. I am that kind of person that has many emotions going through my body everyday. they usually go up and then they fall.  I can be happy one second and then sad the next second. its not always easy. almost all of my friends or the people that I know well are not like me. they are not as sensitive to things as I am. I am a very emotional person. when Im happy, then Im happy as a child, when im sad, then i cry alot. many many feelings go through my poor body;P and usually it goes pretty fast from one emotion to another. my friends, they dont see it that way, or actually I dont know how they feel deep inside when things happen since i cant come into their brain;P but i can just assume what its like. I can imagine it being very calm and clean and ordning och reda as we would say in swedish. like things are at their right place. in my brain its different. my brain is a big chaos of many different feelings. the happy and the sad feelings have many fights...many many many fights...what is okay to feel? is it okay to have emotions that go up and down like a roller coaster when everyone else seem so....like robots? robot is not the right word, becus that seems a bit harch, but its the only word i can think of. Im only human but onfortunately for my case, i come from a culture where its not okay to feel and to let out many feelings. it doesnt matter if its happy feelings or sad feelings, especially not when its dramatic;P sometimes i wish that i came from a Greek culture or a jewish culture or somethings where its allowed to have many fights and be dramatic 100 times a day.. in Sweden everythings is and is suppsoped to be very calm and ur not supposed to be dramatic but thats not me. i dont really see myself as a dramatic person just becus I have many feelings going through my body but maybe my mother would be of a different opinion;P  but I guess im only human.  so what if i feel like being really happy one second and then feel like crying the same evening? like my very good friend said about me, its cute when Im happy becus even when its bad weather I can always see something positive about it, like as an example, if its raining like hell and everyone else would be complaining about the bad weather and that everything sucks, then I would usually try to see something positive about it like if I see an old couple holding hand or a couple kissing each other and I would in that case put emphasis on that instead of complaining about something you cant control (like the weather). when i feel something, i have very strong feelings. i get super excited about something and i appreciate and enjoy every little detail in my life which is something that ppl usually dont think of. and when im sad, im sad like a baby. or maybe not a baby, but a teenager might be a better word:P

or this with ur self confidence needing some confirmation from other people. people always say (or rather, they want to seem very confident) things that are suppsoed to sound very grown up but I wonder how they really feel. according to ppl its not okay to talk about low confidence. or low self esteem for that matter. they rather keep things to them selves. they rather say nothing but if u do feel like getting some response to things u say or think?is that considered wrong or is it instead considered brave? like when im really happy, like i was today and i wanted to share my happiness with someone,  and i couldnt share it in that way that wanted my mood drops many levels.and i get sad. not the first second of course but hours later  my mood drops its always like that when i have been on a very high level of good feelings. of course i was able to share my newstoday  to my friends and they were very happy for me but then the later it gets and i dont get that satisfaction as i want or look for, i get very disappointed. and ofcourse you re supposed to be happy, period. ur not supposed to fall. but what happens to the ppl that do fall in a fast way and that do have a big need to get satisfied whenever they are really happy or really sad? what happens to them? is the world only created for the people who think one thought and basta cosi? or should we just be proud of our roller coaster-way of having feelings and be proud of that we can feel things just like true artists do? 

i think people should say more what they think instead of being so afraid of what pther people might think. i would love to be a person who could be proud of being noisy or being "jobbig", a.k.a annoying with all my feelings. it doesnt mean that we are less worth as people just becus we function like this. so what if we have a thousand, no a million feelings going through our minds and out of our mouths. im not saying that you should say exactly EVERYTHING that pops into ur mind, but still...it wouldnt hurt with some action...

i say yes to not being afraid to say what is on our minds and what are our flaws. everyone want to seem so confident all the time, but isn it time to just be honest with our feelings and just say out loud what we are afraid of or if we have low self confidence etc? we are in the 21st century afetr all...

jejej. wish you all a beautiful night.

buenas noches

h

today when I was walking on Gran Via i saw this huge line of ppl, like they were waiting for something to open or something so I went to have a look at it and i saw this.

       have no idea what it is, according to the poster (the picture in the middle) its a "laugh show" of some kind....not entirely sure what it is or could be....but the line was huge. 

and then after a couple of blocks i saw something that was shimmering:

and then there was a really cool poster next to it that i just had to take pictures  of:

then i walked home and i saw more magic=)

   today seem to be a magic day, full of magic=)

since I love flowers and i love taking pictures of things in (skyltfönster) the windows i took some pictures of these beautiful flowers. (can flowers be ugly? i dont think so....)

         and then finally a very beautiful self portrait hahaha

havent really figured out what the best lighting inside is..so sometimes the pictures i take inside are a bit....dark=)

hasta luego chicos!

h

i just love this day! its been such a great day! very calm and mysi as e would say in swedish=) (means cosy). ive spent it with 2 friends, ellinor and celeste and i brought them to one of the cafés that ive seen on running tours. and the café turned out to be this awsome and really cool concept restaurant where they have a small shop with drinks and they offer 4 different kinds of food (japanese, pasta, spanish food, meat dishes and desserts). we chose japanese food. delicious! althou me and celeste still had some room in our stomachs for more food (a.k.a desserts=)) so we ordered carrot cake and what did my friend order? cant remember the name of it..but it looked good! and of course a cappuccino on top of that! then we went for a walk in a neighbourhood called fontana which is really beautiful, a bit pitoresque. then i took the metro home.  such a nice day!

Ellinor and Celeste

   one of Ellinors typical smiles=)        makis!      my delicious carrot cake!     and one really good cappucino!   waiting for the waiter to come with our bill but whom kept running back and forth so fast that we almost didnt see him    outside of the restaurant   another cute café just next door  looked so cute that we ve decided that we just have to go this place next time we come here!

   arent they adorable looking the cupcakes?      a really cute store on the same street   a happy ellinor   a really really cute little boy on the other side of the street with his grand mother   wonderful weather!  which gives such a beautiful light on the building      fontana, the woman in the middle was quite entertaining because she was screaming so much, probably out of anger or something...   more of these please! porfa!   a cute little market selling old books and stuff      a travelling cappuccino is a must!    celeste´s photography smile acording to her self haha   i just love the decorations on the buildings here in barca!   beautiful      trying to look casual...didnt work that well...   beautiful light  

dont know what i/we are gonna do tonight, but im sure we re gonna do something fun...what it will be you will see tmrw=)

que tengais una noche bonita!

h

today is a great day! i woke up quite late (again), went for a run and i looked at all the trees and they looked so beautiful now that the fall has finally come to barca. i love the colours of the leaves in the fall.. they are so colourful! green, yellow, red, green, brown...and they light up the sky in such a beautiful way that it always makes me smile. I love the fall! its probably my favorite season of the year. becus it allows you to put more effort into what you re wearing. you can cuddle up in a big scarf, sit for hours in a café, you can have long talks over dinner, not bothering going out since its too cold anyway. (well atleast if you live in sweden, maybe not in spain). you can wear more clothes. you can wear more layers. you can sit inside all day or night if you want to. you can chose to stay inside all day on a lazy sunday. there are so many colours when its fall. i just love the feeling of the fall. so much excitement. so many positive feelings. so much eager to do stuff. new stuff aswell. so many events to go to. everyones up for something. i just love the excitement that comes with the fall.

   the picture is borrowed from google.

later this afternoon me and my friends are going to a beach party in the north of barcelona that is lasting all day. u never know what a day will look like here in bcn. thats one thing that i love about this city. u never know whats around the corner=)

hasta luego chicos!

h

what a great day its been today! i woke up quite late, around 11m went for a run, had a late breakfast, skyped with my two great friends whom one of them is visiting the other one who lives in holland. i miss them so so much. i was supposed to be there too but had other (unfortunately) other priorities...like finding a new appartment, movig etc... but its ok, it was great seeing their cute faces again so im ok=) it gave me such positive energy so i def felt stronger when i left home.. so thank you suj and mariko! i went then to passeig de gracia to meet up with my roomates and our friends who had been on a sightseeing bus all afternoon and then gone a museum. i was supposed to meet them fro lunch afterwards but  the skyping kinda got in the way;P but its ok becus i didnt really feel like going to McD (where my friends went) and i had already gone to the Gaudi museum so i went to a really adorable and cute french café that is very close to passeig de gracia. i found it a week ago or so when i was out running. always when i find soemthing cute, like a café or something, i write it down on my itouch so i can remember it later which came in handy this time=) so i went there and it was soo cute. really cute. it looked a bit more proper than what a real french café would look like but this one was still really nice. and the cappuccino! oh wow! the best cappuccino in town! sorry buenas migas but uve got competition! big time!

         as you can see it look very proper and clean. me like that!

then i went to passeig de gracia (which is a big street here in bcn where they have most of the fancy stores such as miu miu, fendi, gucci, louis vuitton etc) and i took some photos and it so great to be able to do that again. its been a while now and ive missed it! i missed that feeling i get when i take photos. ive missed walking alone in barcelona, just wandering around taking pictures. i love walking around by my self. its just me, my camera and my music. i feel so safe when i do that. its like I have a mission to complete when i walk around with my camera. it gives the freedome that i need.

afterwards i met my friends who were on their way back to the metro (the museum is on passeig de gracia) and i chatted with them for a while and then they went home and i continued my tour down passeig de gracia. there i saw a huge manifestation on the street. lots of yelling and screaming. so nothing unusual really for being in spain;P 

then eventually i took the metro home, starving and tired. btubthen when i came to my street i just couldnt resist taking a picture of this:

and on my walkinga round tour i found a big window where i just had to take picture of my shoes. p.s i love taking ppictures of my self and other ppl in big windows=)

tonight me and my roomies are staying home. i think im gonna watch the nanny and some movies...and its looking good at the moment...sometimes its just soo nice to stay at home even if its week end...cest pas mal du tout as you would say in french.=)

besitos/h

im at home listening to john mayer, i just finished studying for my spanish test that i have friday in the afternoon. thank god theres another day tomorrow. today has been no good day. nothing special but still..sometimes i just get in a bad mood and i just want to have some alone time...i think my annoyness is because i start to get restless. sure its really nice not to have too much to do but i want to contribute with something. i am after all 26 years old. but i know its gonna change on monday when my photography course starts, yay btw. and i have to find another appartment,i only signed up for 4 weeks in case the appartment, that my language school chose for me, would end up being not so nice so i decided to stay here for 4 weeks and then find a place for my self. and i DID find a place last week but then the day before last day the guy that i met in the appartment suddenly changed his mind (apparently there was a mix-up) so i didnt get the appartment..so now i have to find a place soon, veeery soon. but it ll be allright. i have someplace to stay if i dont find a place until this w end...

oh i cant wait to get learn about new things, meet new ppl, i wonder so where they will come from. will they be Spanish ppl, south americans? will there be ppl from non-spanish speaking countries just like me? i sure hope so! i wanna produce something. i wanna be efficient, i wanna contribute with something. i wanna learn stuff. i wanna meet nice ppl.

i really hope i will find a really nice appartment soon. becus i wanna have a room just for me (im sharing a room now, for the first of my life) becus right now...i feel kinda lost, i dont feel like ive been progressing in my...life. i feel like im  standing on the same dot ( or however you say it in english).

sometimes i wonder how other ppl think. how they think about making connections with other ppl, with their friends, with ppl that they dont know that well, friends that live far away. do they ever feel needy? do they feel enough? do they have an easy relationship with their friends where everything is easy? where everything "flyter på"? (sorry, dont know what the translation would be in english). or do they think about when their friends do not answer on their calls?do their friends always answer when they call them? do they know that they will always be there for them? some ppl just seem to be so together..i dont know how they do do it, or is it only me who gets self concious when ppl dont answer on my calls or text me back?or do people not care at all if their friends keep in touch alot or not? is it just me?do ppl fake it that everything in their life is good or is it just me?do they pretend to know all the answers in this univers or do they actually wonder why ppl dont write them back or call them alot?do they worry about not being anough? not being enough perfect? do they feel inferior to their friends or is it just me? im just so curious how people think. do they know how everything works in this world or do they feel lost sometimes when they dont have the answers?

i have this year thought alot about how its up to you to make ur self happy a<nd how to find ur self. and sure its good that its up to you since its you that you have the longest relationship with. but still...it kinda sucks. to always  figure out different ways to make ur self happy..is exhausting. what if you DONT know how to make ur self happy? or if you know how to mkae ur self happy 60% of the time but not the rest of the 40%? what do you do then? what do you do if you are single, dont have your closest friends or family close to you all the time? couple of years ago i didnt think about things like these, i thought u just hung out with ppl that made you happy and then that was kinda it. then YOU would feel safe and therefor happy. but its not up ur FRIENDS to make U happy or to feel safe, its unfortunately up to ur self and that sucks! maybe for some ppl its easy, ppl who have never had to make sacrefices or always have had good friends surrounding them all their life. but for the rest of us, its not that easy. especially not for me, im that kinda person that have more ups-and-downs than a normal person ( that I know of). im like an artist. u know the kind that paints alot and can only paint when they are miserable? and they have to have alot of alone time in order to function? thats me. well maybe not 100%, becus i could never be by my self all them time, i def need to meet ppl everyday or I get crazy, but i also need my alone time. sometimes i wish there was a pill you could take (safe pill, not drugs) that you could take and everything would be allright. no worries, no anxiety, no envy, no jelousy. but maybe you wouldnt appreciate the good times then if you could just a pill whenever you would feel down and everything would disapear and be perfect. i know that there are happy pills etc, but im talkig about pills that dont exist, im not talking about drugs or alcohol, becus i dont believe you can make ur feelings or whatever they may be with drinking or using drugs, thats not what im talking about. im talking about a pill that you could take whenever you would feel down and then like a miracle you would feel good again, and with no negative parts.

enough with all the questions. im gonna read my book and then go to bed. and try to make me feel like i rule the world tomorrow and try to find different ways to make my self happy for the rest of the month.

buenas noches!

h