ok, so ive started making made up stories when i sit at cafés. i wanted to find a cool way to describe cafés and coffee etc and one way to make it more alive was to make up stories about the ppl sitting the same café as me (poor guys...they had nooo idea that i was maing up stories about them...). so here´s one of them:

uggla kaffebar, st knuts torg

an older man in his mid 60s sitting out on the square with a younger woman in her 30s.

The man felt incredibly happy to finally be with the love of his life. Not long ago he had decided that enough was enough, he would no longer care about what ppl said about him and his mistress. He knew that they thought the age difference between them was too big for them to handle, but in fact it was the other way around. He had had many relationships before but they all had been big failures and the reason behind that, he thought, was probably because he had always felt very old and uncomfortable around women in his own age. and now he was, well still married, but ever since he met Kristina, he had felt more alive than ever before(?). He felt free just thinking about her and looking at her made him burst with joy. He had no idea that he would, or could, feel like this. He felt he could do anything he wanted to, as long as he had her by his side. everything was possible. e wasn't entirely sure whether or not his friends could understand how happy he actually was with this woman next to him. They of course only wanted the best for him, and he knew that, but there was no need for them to be worried about him. He could take care of himself. For the first time of his life he felt this. That everything was good. well almost everything..

He suspected that his wife in fact knew about his affair but that she had decided to swallow it and not talk about it which led to even more distance between the two of them. Actually he didn't have any energy left to discuss things with her anymore. it was just not that important to him anymore. The only thing that mattered to him, was Kristina. and making her as happy as he possibly could. and what astonished him, was that he actually wanted to make her happy. It was the first time in his life that he felt like this. he had never felt this before. He had been happy with his women before, but only during the first period of the relationship and then afterwards came the complicated misery that ended in either break-up or divorce. however, all these failed relationships had led him to this beautiful and amazing woman that he was now having this affair with. It wasn't something he was proud of. normally he wasn't the type of man who cheated on his woman, he was more like the decent kind of man who wanted to be with only one woman. But this ..situation…was different. yes, it was cheating, he could escape that fact of course, and he knew it was wrong, but that thing made it not feeling like an affair (even tho it was) was that he was really really happy with this Kristina. She made him feel differently about things. About situations that he had seen in a different way before. She also made him feel that he was good enough. That everything was ok, or would be ok no matter what the situation looked like. He accepted him for the man that he was. And this, this made him relaxed. Relaxed in his heart for the first time of his life. he felt he could finally breath. no more need to escape or hiding his emotions anymore. Another great thing about her, was that she accepted him, not only for the person that he was, but also for his past. For all his failed marriages and relationships. For all his mistakes. And this, this was a miracle to him. 

So all of this made him think of this as, not an affair because he was bored, but as something essential. She was the most important person in his life so of course he planned on marrying her someday. however, this day had not come yet. not yet. e would have to divorce his wife first and make sure that she was ok with being a divorcee. It was all about timing. not about being scared or chicken. Because he was not scared of divorcing his wife, but he just wanted to make the situation go as smooth as possible. However, there was one thing that his wife did not know about know and that was that he, indeed had accidentally made Kristina pregnant which meant they had a child together, Julia,( that he thought was the cutest thing alive. ) so this made it all a bit more complicated. A child outside the marriage was not something that you accepted immediately so he would have to figure out how to ease in his new child into his wife´s world without creating too much of a chaos. that would not be fair to either of them. 

"But…. just looking at this beautiful ”mistake” made him insanely happy. It was really everything about the child and their situation that made him almost cry with joy. It was the fact that he felt that there was almost no more suffering left in his life, or at least, there was a lot less suffering. There was the fact that he had finally seen a point with all these failed marriages and relationships which made him sigh with relief (there had been many times in which he had thought that he was just not meant to be truly happy and that happiness wasn´t for him). And also, the most important thing was that he could finally feel free with this amazing and cool woman by his side. oh, he forgot, also the fact that he could finally do whatever he wanted to, because the future belonged to him. So all of these emotions and thoughts came to his mind every time he looked at Julia, now 1 year old, which meant that this little child was a symbol for all these emotions and events. So all of this made him cry with joy and relief and that made him even happier, and also light at heart. He was finally free. Free and happy."

here are some café related pictures (well most of them atleast=)) that ive taken recently in Cannes, and Monaco and Stockholm and in Barcelona=)

this one is from when me and my friend had breakfast at this Italian inspired café in Cannes. it was a really nice street (rue d´Antibes) that had lots of cafés and restaurants everywhere on the street. was so much fun just doing ppl-watching there.

this was in monaco (day trip) and after hours of walking i finally had coffee and ice cream in the heat in front of the famous casino..was very pretty, alltho maaaaany tourists there..

Hope you enjoyed my story=)

lots of love!

Hanne

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